13

 Good morning world, 

this chapter is going to be going back to when I was 13 when my mental health journey started.

There will be a little bit of self-harm talk. But you can miss that part if you like.

So back when I was 13, my parents were constantly fighting over everything, as a child you would think it's your fault. I was constantly thinking that they were fighting because of my brothers and me.

I was also over not getting the attention and love I wanted that my brothers were getting, 

A little back story to that, I am the only girl and the youngest of my family, so I would always get treated differently. 

I would always get told I'm not a lot to do anything, not allowed to play any sports. 

I always felt like I was the disappointment of the family.

With me feeling like this I was completely numb, so I reverted to self-harm to feel something. I told my best friend at the time I did that and she ended up going back to my brother and telling him which involved him telling my dad, which also ended up causing a huge argument.

Im going to leave it at that as there is so much more that happened, but ill upload that later.

Thanks for coming along to my crazy chaos life.